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lame O

Sat, 06 Jun 2009 00:35:03 GMT

I realize i havent updated in centuries. I also realize that nobody probablly really noticed nor cares. HA!

My laptop is on its death bed (literally), my wireless is a piece of crap and my life really isnt that fucking interesting. But i will be up and writing again soon ..maybe. This is my therapy.

I want a MacBook (ASAP!) who wants to be my sugardaddy(momma)?

Summer plans? hmmm lets see...

4th of july weekend..will be in Las Vegas. Woooooo! the excitement has been shooting out my ass since I booked my ticket. I just cannot wait!

Summer school *gun to head, pulling trigger*

and thats about it for now. BOOM!

old fart.

Wed, 18 Mar 2009 16:10:26 GMT

My BIRTHDAY!
I feel old old old! 22 i guess is not THAT old...everyone keeps telling, me but still...
I can't help the way I feel..and how dar ANYONE try to tell me how to feel on my bday. haha. jk. jk.

So i'm really not too excited about my bday. The older I get, the less excited I am. Ahh life.
I feel like I haven't updated in years. I think I just like reading about other peoples lives rather than writing about my own. Aint "big shit poppin'" in my life anyway. I think i'll make a better effort though to write. It will be my therapy.

stuck.

Sun, 21 Dec 2008 07:22:31 GMT

so i'm literally stuck in the house because of this damn snow storm.
4 people already died & its been snowing non-stop since this morning.

this shit is crazy yo!

ballin' on a budget mayne.

Tue, 04 Nov 2008 02:59:25 GMT

boot season is here!!; in love.

Originally I wanted these...

Urban Outfitters $299.99

Buuutt I opted for these...

Payless $39 (w/ sale discount)

AND had money left over to buy these..

$19.99

i'm such a ~~cheap~~ broke ass !

The girls were jockin' my fresh at the club last night when i stepped out in my "purple rains" while they were rockin their $400 pumps from Saks.

I was amused.

Sun, 07 Sep 2008 21:44:44 GMT

uuuggggghhhhhhhh!

i feel like crap!!!

...and i will be your main squeeze

Tue, 05 Aug 2008 01:54:05 GMT

i never heard of them before their show on mtv.
i'm officially obsessed!!
i love them & their music.

plus i love randomly yelling out the name "shwaaaayyyyzeeeee"
apparently its the new word I yell out when I'm drunk. lol.
it used to be "shabba!"

lucky ass!

Tue, 03 Jun 2008 08:23:58 GMT

Where do i even start?

Im going to this tonight!!!!

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So i've been anticipating this concert for like months but figured i'd never be able to get tickets because i am briggidy BROKE BROKE! I figured i could always try to win tickets but my ass is too lazy & wasn't even trying to make an effort. So the days are winding down till the concert & i'm thinking to myself that I really wanna see me some damn Kanye & Lupe cause they are my favorite artists! and I could give two flying fucks about Rihanna..but I really wanted to go to this concert. I haven't been to a concert since like the 8th grade.

I knew i'd be kicking myself in the ass if i didn't atleast TRY to win tickets so the whole damn day yesterday me & my girl Danielle are listening to the radio station tryna figure out the next time their giving out tickets. FINALLY they announce "last chance to get tickets. Be caller number 7 to win!"
Im like okay, i got the number on speed dial. Why me and my girl have 3 phones in front us calling this damn radio station? lol. Im steady calling ..hanging up..calling again..over and over till finally 'ol dude gets on and is like "i'm sorry I just now gave out the last tickets." So i'm like DAMNNNNit man!
But then he's like i'll be giving out another pair in an hour so stay tuned & call back.
I'm like okay okay...
An hour passes..im calling my ass off from 3 different phones (the razor, the sidekick, and the house phone..lol). Some other female ends up winning so I'm like damn!!! I guess no Kanye tickets for me. I really thought it was a lost cause after all that. WRONG!

Later that night I had to go pick up my dad from the airport at like 10:45 and i'm still listening to the radio while i'm driving on the freeway and their talking about they'll be giving out free passes to the Rose Festival Carnival that Portland has every year. So i'm like okay..let me try to atleast win those so me and my friends can get on all the rides for free. I call..and i'm caller #2. Hang up and call back with the quickness and i'm caller #7. Their telling me I won! Blah blah ..So i'm excited but would be more excited for Kanye West tickets. So i'm driving and dude is asking for all my information and then afterwards i'm like "you dont happen to have any more Kanye West tickets do you" and he's like as a matter fact i do. I'm like word? Dont play wit me! He's like "yeah i forgot i had an extra pair of tickets." In my head i'm like HOW YOU FORGET THAT YOU HAVE EXTRA KANYE WEST TICKETS LYING AROUND??? Then i'm like I will give up these Rose Festival carnical tickets for Kanye West tickets..but i didnt actually think he was gonna let me do it BUT HE DID! I damn near crashed into the car in front of me..screaming, dropped my phone & everything. I JUST ABOUT DIED! People swurving past me honking, staring, look at me like im crazy but i didnt care.
I feel like the luckiest person right now. I NEVER win shit from radio stations, maybe cause I never really try but i'm so excited!!! And these tickets are VIP front row and backstage tickets, and afterwards we're hitting up the after party at some club. I am soooo excited, giddy, happy, etc. etc. soo many emotions are flowing out my ass right now.

This post is all sorts of a MESS. I probablly spelled words all wrong, but I don't care. I know I never update but heres an update for that ass! I had to vent out my excitment in some way so here it is. This post will probablly be deleted later anyways..

In the meantime WoooooooooooooooooHooooooooo!!!!

I cant wait to see this man tonight!

The Things We Carry

Wed, 12 Mar 2008 10:18:17 GMT

What do you always carry with you?

View 502 Answers

around campus:
lip gloss or chapstick ...sometimes both.
both of my cell phones (razor & sidekick ♥)
school crap (books, bball shoes/clothes, track shoes/clothes, etc. etc.)
iD card

off campus:
lip gloss
both cell phones
wallet w/ money $$$$
compact (to keep the scar on my nose in check)
lotion
gum
keys

It's interesting to think of the things we carry around with us on a daily basis.
I feel lost if i don't have one of those two things on my list, especially my cell phone(s).
I just dont feel right without them in my possession.

drunk & high

Wed, 06 Feb 2008 09:33:16 GMT

man...drunk & high people are HILARIOUS!

just got back from kicking it with the homies. Haven't seen them in awhile so it was good.
went to some dudes house who used to work with me and my boy at NIKE and EVERYBODY was drunk and high. FUNNY SHIT!

...and that is how i spent my mardi gras (fat tuesday).

now i gotta write a paper & apply for this internship at Nordstrom.
I'll be in Idaho for the weekend. Hopefully i don't get lynched.

resolutions sucka!

Wed, 02 Jan 2008 05:09:31 GMT

New Years resolutions usually aint my 'thang'but what the hell...

1. I am going to try to be the best friend i can be to my friends in '08.
i've realize that the few friends that i do have in my life are speacial & important people who actually care about my ass so I need to take head to that & be there for them like they've been there for me. I flaked out on a lot my friends & left them out in the dust due to my own personal issues ..and im sorry.

2. Im gonna ~~try~~ and let my guard down when it comes to meeting new people and stop thinking that everybody is a snake and is out to get something from me. I feel like i've missed out on getting to know a lot of potentially good friends + people because of this.

3. Let my guard down when it comes to females..cause lawd knows i can't stand 'em. lol. I can only call about 2 females in my life true friends, the rest I call tag alongs. I'mma try and quit writing females off as bitches, untrustworthy, and snakes. Plus i'm turning 21 soon so i figure i need more females i can trust to be able to hit up the clubs with me. lol. I'm tired of being the only girl amongst all my guy friends at parties & clubs.

Then I got the same 'ol same 'ol resolutions like stay focused in school & get my grades up to a 3.0 or above. I'm still working on that resolution from '07. But i guess that is all the resolutions I got for now. I wanna get my belly button peirced this year after basketball season and maybe get a tattoo this year.

stilleto, pumps in the club..

Tue, 13 Nov 2007 04:26:50 GMT

I saw this on MadTV ...and was rolling.

She sounds JUST like them ladies that do my nails up the block.

Haven't updated in a while...
College is kicking me in the ass, HARD! Basketball sucks! Same 'ol ..same 'ol. I'll come back later this week and post some pics of what i've bought recently. I'm starting to get into heels for some reason, knowing my ass is already tall as hell and dont need to be wearing any damn heels. But i'm thinking I need to stop my sneaker, sweat pants, and hoodies phase..and start dressing more like a girl once i start my interviews for internships. But i know i'm lying to myself..cause i'll probablly NEVER give up my sneaker and hoodies fetish ..I'm just thinking about investing in these for awhile:

My ass gonna be looking like a giraffe on stelts..cause LAWD knows i can't walk in heels. But i gotta learn some way..why does well start now.

Thu, 23 Aug 2007 21:34:37 GMT

Everytime I plan something my plans fail.

Last weekend my plans to get my Jordans failed.
I never did get to kick it with those i wanted to,
But I DID get to see the premiere of Superbad but not with who I wanted to. But as if my weekend couldnt suck any further, I locked my keys in the car...but thanks to my car stealing boyfriend (not really), i was able to get them out. We ended up missing half the movie, I ended up paying cause he's a loser and never pays, and we ended up having to leave the movie early too.

WHACK!
The movie was fucking hilarious though. We're going back to see it.

On a much brighter note. I went shoppin! My spiz'ike Jordans were sold out and my ass was way to sick/hung over to go to the Jordan Launch at 5 in the morning last Saturday. My friend kept blowing me up telling me to get my ass up to go to Beavorton so we could get the shoes. It was a wrap for me, my ass wasn't having it. I was OUT! Come to find out...he said he would have bought them for me if he would've known what size I wore..but my ass was too gone to answer my damn phone. OH WELL! I ended up getting these instead....

x-posted in hoodiesjeans

Inside of shoe.

typical myspace birds eye view pic. MWHAHA...

My blazers also arrived yesterday in the mail...

I think i'm done buying useless shit (shoes) for awhile. I have waaaayy too many damn shoes. Its getting kinda ridiculous. I need to start saving up money for school. School starts the 28th. I can't quite figure out yet whether I should be excited or kill myself. = /

I dont like it unless its BRAND NEW.

Sat, 11 Aug 2007 07:31:03 GMT

Today at work...

4 kids came in with empty backpacks trying to steal.

2 other kids ran out the store with 2 pairs of shoes. Before we could even try to say anything..They was gone. DIPSET!

1 kid came in starting stuff, cussing out the managers. He's not allowed into our store but yet continues to come back every other week & gets kicked out every other week.

1 Lady came in trying to steal. Accomplished her goal. She comes in damn near every month, tells the sales associates that shes gonna steal..walks out with a pair of NIKES and a T-shirt and we cant do shit!

Welcome to retail in the hood!

argh! I really can't stand theives. It's sad, really. I wanna chase after 'em and knock whatever their trying to steal out of their hands and tell 'em to get a FUCKING JOB! But then I realize, that I enjoy my life & aint tryna get shot. My job does not pay me enough to be chasing after crazy people that try to steal. They crazy and bold enough to steal, LORD knows what they might do to my ass if I tried to stop 'em. It's just really sad though.

Since I have some sense and know stealing is wrong..I bought a new Jordan hoodie from work today. $14.99 after discount. Loves it!

Also bought some Jordan basketball shorts. Imma rock these with the spiz'ike that come out in September.

That is all. For now...

peace.

Sat, 11 Aug 2007 06:33:12 GMT

Tagged by sassyxreckless
1. List seven habits/quirks/facts about yourself.
2. Tag seven people to do the same.
3. Do not tag the person who tagged you or say that you tag whoever wants to do it. </p>

1. I'm addicted to shoes & basketball shorts. I have waaaaayy too many shoes and not enough outfits to go with 'em. Whenever I'm online I visit shoe sites to see whats new and what shoes I should buy next. Since i've started my job back at Nike, I've bought over 5 pairs of shoes and 16 other nike products that I dont really need. I've overdrafted from my bank account for the 3rd time this month.

2. I'm Nigerian. Most people dont know until they meet my parents, who have accents.

3. I have a bad habit of laughing too much or too loud. If I find it funny, imma laugh. If you fall down the stairs imma laugh. [ex. Beyonce.]

4. I tend to ~~be negative~~ complain a lot. I'm trying hard to work on that because I truly dont have nothing to complain about.

5. I have a bad habit of drinking half a drink and not finishing the rest. I have a small bladder so I can only drink so much. I'll pour a full glass of juice and leave like 1/4 left in the glass. Whenever I go out to eat..I wont take a sip of my drink until my food is in front of me and even when my food is in front of me I still wont finish my glass. I rarely ask for refills.

6. I'm a fucking BOSS. Most people don't know it...but its true.

7. I have a short attention span. Call it A.D.D. if you will...but if its not interesting enough for me my mind will wander and I probablly wont pay attention. Most my friends hate this because they'll try to tell me something and i'll start doing something else while their trying to talk to me. Or sometimes i'll act like I'm paying attention when I'm really not.

Tagging diorglam eyecuqqn crazybri yelnats _yolandanicole dopehoney _intenselove

purple pills

Sat, 04 Aug 2007 08:05:20 GMT

their purple!

sooo glad they exactly match the hoodie i bought.

i'm about to 'cop these @ the factory tomorrow.

<3

blah. working for nike really doesn't help my addiction.

summer in July

Wed, 18 Jul 2007 22:54:51 GMT

this is...

RIDICULOUS !

[excuse the crappy camera phone pics.]

it's fucking July and its pouring down rain. WTF?
I'm really craving a slurpee and a hot dog from 7-11 but the experience would be so much better if it were sunny outside.

i cant help but feel depressed right now.

aww po' kelly

Thu, 05 Jul 2007 07:05:14 GMT

Kelly's album came out yesterday. I heard it flopped in the UK & then flopped some more somewhere else. So sad. This is one chic i really want to make it solo; minus the help of her association with Beyonce & the Knowles.

she looks air brushed as all hell on her album cover !

I havent bought a cd since Kanye West's 'College Dropout' so the chances of me coping this album is 0000x00. I do hope she does well though because I think she can sing and is gorgeous. Plus, we need more chocolate girls in the music industry dammit!
[previously posted @ ahotmess]

Anyways, the 4th was coo'
i ate A LOT.
that is all.

lies.

Mon, 25 Jun 2007 15:08:09 GMT

I'm getting better & better at catching him in his lies.

Everytime he tries to lie he'll start rambling about something that doesn't apply to the conversation we're having or the question I just asked him.

Or when I ask him a question and he tries to hit me with the occasional...

"Huh? What'd you say?"

Oh.. so all of sudden you're deaf now?
You know damn well the question I just asked. My ass aint hitting you with sign language.
I gotta give him his props though, sometimes he'll really have me going. UNTIL, his ass slips up & has a down syndrome moment. Durr, huh? whaaaaa?

The process of catching someone in a lie..is so damn simple that I dont know how my dumb ass never caught on before.
Ask literally a thousand and one questions. Keep tabs of every answer the person gives you & go back & randomly ask one of the same question & see if you get the same response as before. Too damn simple, I know.. but easy to fuck up. Dont get caught up in extra words & stories the person might try to throw at you to catch you off guard. If it dont apply to the question or conversation then it really dont apply to you.

This all just reminds me that I need to be more careful before my ass decides to tell a lie. lol.

Thu, 21 Jun 2007 23:02:19 GMT

i just made a post in hoodiesjeans.
it consisted of me posting pics of me & my many shoes.

i'm glad i found this community because i love street style.

i'm in love with my bowling bag style purses...

just got these last week. Air Max 90s

And theres still some more shoes i gotta go get. My first check is going towards shoes & clothes.

These last couple of weeks have been so DRY. I'm spending my day off sitting at the house, watching TV like a loser. I mean I could go "kick it" & hang out with friends, get something to eat, go to the movies..but that gets old. I need to find EXCITING things to do this summer besides work & working out, because once school starts..its a wrap!

i'm off to go play ball.

VOTE please

Wed, 06 Jun 2007 00:24:32 GMT

VOTE for my cousin Jazz to be on the Real World.

VOTE HERE!
VOTE HERE!
VOTE HERE!

I doubt he'll make it since he needs 1,000 votes in order to make it to the next round & he only has like 76. But anythings possible.

You have to register and all that bull crap in order to vote but TRUST ME...this boy would be HILARIOUS to see on the Real World. He was made for this show.

Wed, 16 May 2007 07:46:25 GMT

I havent updated in forever so i guess i will do just that, since i'm not doing shit.

last week we had our Conference Track Meet. We are the champions bitches! I qualified for Nationals in Fresno, California and I'm excited although, I know its probably going to be HOTT as hell. We leave on Sunday.

4x1 relay - 1st place. we smoked those bitches.

1st place in the Long jump. I got dark as hell that day.

Our womens team won the whole damn thing.

Our sprint coach. He used to run for U of O

These dudes are hilarious. They look like their still in high school. Sad.

Our Mens team tied for first with Eastern Oregon University. Eastern cheated though.

I'm done with my Sophmore year of college thank the LORD! My grades were horrible this semester but hopefully next year i will finally get the hang of this college thing. I don't feel any older but instead I feel younger. But as I get older I realize that all I have is myself. Its up to me to get my ass to the top. I've been hurt by those who I thought cared about me, leaving me behind & squashing my emotions just so they can reach the top & get ahead. So I've decided, I'm done being stepped on & being the volunerable one. Time for me to man up and do me. I'm done caring about those who don't give a damn about me or themselves. Time to be the ruthless bitch that I didn't want to become. I guess this is the way I gotta be since we're already living in a ruthless world anyway.

late v-day post

Mon, 19 Feb 2007 05:31:38 GMT

4 balloons. kisses. bear. candles. dinner to Izzys (my choice..i love Izzys)

his mother wanted to get in on the love. "take my picture joyce"
i think the flash was waay to bright though. lol.

he bought me smell good stuff (spray, lotion, etc.), a bear, candy, candles..i LOVE candles, and balloons. The 4 balloons represent, in his words, the 4 years we've been together. LOL. i didn't get any roses though. = (
I boycotted dressing up. I wore a Concordia University sweatshirt, some jeans, and my nikes & still looked fly. Plus it was raining that day ..so no need to get all done up for nothing. He, on the other hand came over to my place looking like freshly snipes and shit. lol.
..it was all sweet though.
I can't deny it, i love his stupid loser ass.

v-day!

Wed, 14 Feb 2007 22:06:58 GMT

it's raining on v-day.

Date tonight with him.
Presents. Lot's of them hopefully! = )

I'm not getting my hopes up though. Hopefully he won't fuck up like he did last year.
I ~~bought~~ got him Popeye Valentines Day boxers that I won from this event yesterday & some candy. It's kinda fucked up, but I don't care. He always loses the presents I get him anyway. If tonight goes well i'll take pictures & make a picture post later. I'm in need of an update.

I'm swamped with college work which sucks..but i digress..

Happy Valentines day!

Wed, 17 Jan 2007 01:13:36 GMT

fuck a sidekick III ...

i want this bitch!

Tue, 02 Jan 2007 04:54:00 GMT

I've come to the realization that I am HORRIBLE at keeping journals.

For those who actually read my 'ish ..please forgive me for my lack of updating. I think i'm just going to use livejournal as a venting tool. Whenever i need to vent i will come on here, post pics, post music that I'm working on in the studio, etc.

Believe me, my life is not that interesting anyways!

Oh and my New Years Eve sucked big hairy ass!
I had practice at 9 o'clock in the morning the day after, so I decided to stay home & I did my hurr & suprisingly enough, i'm content with that.